do not worry

anxiety snatches from us the light of heaven. the light of heaven which is God’s love and grace and our greatest treasure. the snatching comes through small holes in our thinking - thoughts that bind themselves to our hearts and cause us to slowly lose our own thoughts. the anxious thoughts are not ours, nor will we ever own or control them. controlling them or owning them leaves us constantly asphyxiated. the only hope is to breath them out as deeply as we can, and to practice breathing out often. the soul’s breath requires practice, only through trials and practice does lung capacity increase. do not worry for worry intoxicates. do not worry whether you please God. do not worry if the beloved returns your love. do not worry if love will reject you, if she will toss a cold glance towards you and then find something better - there is none other than you. anxiety tempts us towards options, but we ourselves, our souls, our being ourselves, is the only option. anxiety wishes to fill our lungs causing us to lose consciousness, until the years slip by and our faces turn blue. but in the throne room there is only the soul which is who you are.